Hello blog, and hello lovely blog-followers. I’m back! (I spruced the place up a bit.)
By way of explanation of my sudden disappearance: I had a bad year. (Those of you on my Facebook know what I mean by bad; the rest of you, let us just say a BAD. YEAR. and leave it at that.)
Yet, despite the extreme amount of bad, I made a lot of jewelry. Easily, the best jewelry I’ve made to date. And, oddly, the best stuff came in spring and summer, during the build-up and climax of the bad.
At the end of July, I had an accident with a kitchen knife (go me), and ended up with six stitches in my knuckle. In August, I kept on making jewelry, despite a gauze finger, then a bandaged finger, then a finger brace. (I did not actually solder with the gauze finger; I thought I’d set myself on fire.) I’ve had a big workload since September, and my workshop time has been spotty at best, but I’m looking forward to heading back in the very near future.
Anyway. You’re probably wondering about the title of this post. I was reading an article that I rediscover every so often, called 6 Harsh Truths That Will Make You A Better Person (caution: strong language, NSFW videos.) I’m not normally a reader of Cracked, but this author got it spot-on. Under the last “truth”, Everything Inside You Will Fight Improvement, it starts with:
The human mind is a miracle, and you will never see it spring more beautifully into action than when it is fighting against evidence that it needs to change. Your psyche is equipped with layer after layer of defense mechanisms designed to shoot down anything that might keep things from staying exactly where they are — ask any addict.
It then lists several ways one will resist change, shift blame, duck responsibility, etc. All good stuff, all true. The statement I find so profound, which I keep gravitating back toward, comes at the end of all that:
Remember, misery is comfortable. It’s why so many people prefer it. Happiness takes effort.
Also, courage. It’s incredibly comforting to know that as long as you don’t create anything in your life, then nobody can attack the thing you created.
Through all the bad 2015 offered me, all the setbacks and stress and frustrations, I’ve done my best to keep creating things. It’s not always jewelry; sometimes it’s coloring books or collage or doodling. (As a 25-year ink-doodler, I’ve jumped on the Zentangle craze like there’s no tomorrow.) And it seems like the things created are even better for having come out of darkness. It doesn’t always work that way; sometimes I’ll go to the workshop, have a terrible time, and go see a movie instead. But I keep on trucking. I have to remind myself, it’s perseverance, not pace, that’s important.
This week, two very talented artists succumbed to cancer (that destroyer of all things good): David Bowie and Alan Rickman. I was really inspired upon reading this account of Bowie’s last 18 months of life, and how, rather than despair at his diagnosis, he chose to kick it into high gear, creatively.
And if this is indication, I’m not the only one inspired.
I don't know how to live in a world without David Bowie and Alan Rickman, but I'm gonna start by being bold and creative and weird as hell.
— Delilah S. Dawson (@DelilahSDawson) January 14, 2016
May we all have the strength and fortitude to do likewise.